As a less than average cricketer, I am only in the game for the enjoyment and fun of it.
Having developed my keeping over the last few years I have bounced between 2XI and 3XI, more through shortness of players than ability or any other reason. Without a batting bone in my body, I usually am the start of the tail if not the end of the tail. However, I look forward to the cricket season all year round. Playing Football at a very high standard I enjoy the transition to cricket during the Summer.
I don't think I could play at the level of our 1st Team due to the amount of pressure and the standard of the cricket. I have always accepted I will never be an outstanding cricket. Although I wouldn't say I lack the ambition, I personally believe that I wouldn't be a useful team asset at a higher standard, therefore would rather enjoy my complimentary 5 runs batting at 9 for the 3rd team.
On the other hand, as a youth development coach for my club, I do strive to develop our youth players, possibly due to my personal failures at that age and knowing what is achievable.
Sorry for the rant