It took me 23yrs before I was finally diagonsed with depression. Its very cycical and creeps up on you. I left my last club because the pressures of taking on the captaincy at very short notice before the start of the season,no players to pick from etc.. It made me ill. I joined a new club,told them what had happened and just turned up to play, with no pressure. Averaged 42 and the buggers have made me vice for next yr! It does put you in a dark place joking aside. I sat on the edge of a rock face on Kinder Scout in a blizzard not really caring if I fell 500ft or not. Id driven off from work after just losing the ability to speak while in a meeting.. walked out of office got in car ,drove to Edale and walked on the kinder plateau ( 2000 ft up, very artic in winter) in daze. A chance phone call from an old friend at that moment saved me I think.
Still on medication and a nightmare to live with