Well considering this was my first season I wasn't expecting much. But it's been quite disappointing really, I am a bowler but get played as a number 5 batsman. But I've had 5 ducks, and my highest score is 4 which was from my only boundary, which is quite embarrassing. Before my team mates made excuses that I came when there was a collapse or near the end of the innings. But then I got my chance at number 3, and yeah, I got out for a golden duck. I felt like actually quitting.
The two times I've gotten to bowl I've got 3 wickets but only bowling 1.4 overs overall, and don't know if it's a real indication as I've been brought in to bowl when there's tailenders.
I put a lot of effort in the field, I don't know why, but it's just something that I do. My friends call me the 'specialist fielder' since I'm usually diving about saving boundaries or taking catches. Never thought I would be a 'fielder' in the team haha. Thing is though, I still get picked which is puzzling, but when I've played, we've only lost three games out of 16m while losing 5 when I've not played. Maybe I'm just a non-contributing good luck charm
What sometimes frustrates me is a few times I've not batted or bowled in a game, that's what annoys me the most.
I don't get annoyed when I don't perform because I never perform in the first place. I play cricket because I love it, not just because I am good at it. Just saying, last season I did not get a bat above 8, highest score 1* (only got out once the whole season) and bowled 4 balls. So yeah, never been "in form"
This post kind of sums it for me, but I just rambled!