This is a hard one for me as our club has always been competitive but with new players and president we're now ultra competitive meaning it's all about the win. We have a short 40 over season here with 6 games to win the league this year, to the extent that having lost 2 of our matches but ending up in the top 3, we play the other 2 top teams and need to win by big margins to stand any chance.
However, we've lost the inclusivity and even though the decisions have been difficult for the selectors, I know we've lost something that our club was well known for i.e. competitiveness and inclusivity, especially with new players to the game. We don't have enough players for a second team and never will do.
I've been one in particular to miss out this season having been a long time member and only been selected to play for one of the league games and deselected for 4 others, when available. This week's team has a T 20 emphasis for a 40 over game, so I miss out again, and even though this was explained in the selection e-mail to all by the president and a follow up e-mail to me from the captain, I'm left feeling 'what's the point?' again.
A couple of pre-season friendlies and social games, I'm left on the verge of leaving cricket altogether and feeling terrible about it too...